July First
11:31 p.m.
Just took my Flamquit—no pain anymore but my mouth tastes salty all. the. time. I blame my left extraction site. I pray it isn't infected. I have so many stitches. They said 五針 but I didn't even know what that even meant until I could physically open my mouth and see with my own eyes.
First day interning. They hit with me the, "Hey you need to 出勤 overnight this Thu–Fri and ALSO next Mon–Fri. By the way, this week is super important and you need to be able to key your W/Ps (working papers) super fast. How good are you at Excel?"
Not good at all. Mediocre or worse. I almost cried. I cried at home. Wailed to my friends about being just an intern. About being hit by adult responsibilities at mach 10, cause forget about being hit by speeding trucks on four fronts, I'm actually being ambushed. And then I was like, "i can't even say 'but i'm just an intern [emo770] (crying cat)' because then i'm instantly reminded of that girl who told her dad 'i'm just a girl' in response to him telling her to stop using his card for gas. remember what he says? he says, 'i don't know what that means but it sounds like it diminishes you as a person'" on Plurk and promptly Got Over It.
Mom and dad just laughed. They were like this is GREAT and I was like DON'T YOU SEE ME SUFFERING UNDER THE WEIGHT OF NEW RESPONSIBILITY. I love them. I thank them so much. I love love love LOVE and am so so so SO grateful for my parents. Thank you mom & dad. Love you.
Maybe T is right. I may need to start a gratitude journal.
In other life-ending, earth-shattering, devastating news, AO3 is down. It will be down for another 3 hours. I had been in the middle of a university AU. What am I supposed to do now, write my own? Sleep? (I have actually very much been writing my own, and it is coming together as nicely as as draft of mine could ever come together: that is, I actually wrote Words [over a thousand!] and this is the Most Productive I've been since my last draft, modified February 13, 2022.)
The day is ending and it will no longer be July First if I don't post this Fast. Listen to NCT Wish's "Tears Are Falling" and Onew and Rosé's cover of "Lucky."